I am glad to say i think the situation has finally been alleviated. A much needed discussion occurred last night, through text (i did not send the first text, just replied to his). I debated long and hard about how this situation can be confronted the proper way, i thought quite possibly: through text? over phone? facebook? in person? Well, the answer was through text, from his part. I did not need to use the 'speech' i constructed while i was smacked during 'earth week', but bits and pieces were implemented.
Overall, i am pleased with the situation. Pleased that some of my thoughts were finally brought to the table, and it wasn't a disastrous end. I mean, I should not have even put that much consideration into it like i did, but hey, I couldn't help it. I did not owe him SHIT, nothing, nada. Not once was i taken out respectably like i deserved to be. He lucked out from my sexual frustration, and my being a sucker for super-cute light skinned black dudes. I can clearly draw the line between sexual connections and emotional connection, thank god i don't mix the two too often and end up attached.
He only provided me with physical satisfaction, not the 'more' i was desperately hoping for from him. I thought we'd be a good match. No emotional strings, nothing consistent, which is what i needed over physical gratitude granted i am still sore from my last relationship. He slacked in showing me any signs of intentions for anything deeper. Sex a few times only goes but so far when i go to school 3 hours away. It was an epic fail on his part, he should have taken me out, or got me a gift, or at least made an effort to make communication everyday and maybe this could have gone further. I dont understand how he thought we could build a relationship off of this but...eh.
We had a good run, it kept my spring break juicy, it was a nice little fling. He exceeded my sexual expectations. And no, i am not sorry for 'hitting it and quitting it'. The only problem is ill be working with him over the summer, we'll see how that goes...
Overall, i am pleased with the situation. Pleased that some of my thoughts were finally brought to the table, and it wasn't a disastrous end. I mean, I should not have even put that much consideration into it like i did, but hey, I couldn't help it. I did not owe him SHIT, nothing, nada. Not once was i taken out respectably like i deserved to be. He lucked out from my sexual frustration, and my being a sucker for super-cute light skinned black dudes. I can clearly draw the line between sexual connections and emotional connection, thank god i don't mix the two too often and end up attached.
He only provided me with physical satisfaction, not the 'more' i was desperately hoping for from him. I thought we'd be a good match. No emotional strings, nothing consistent, which is what i needed over physical gratitude granted i am still sore from my last relationship. He slacked in showing me any signs of intentions for anything deeper. Sex a few times only goes but so far when i go to school 3 hours away. It was an epic fail on his part, he should have taken me out, or got me a gift, or at least made an effort to make communication everyday and maybe this could have gone further. I dont understand how he thought we could build a relationship off of this but...eh.
We had a good run, it kept my spring break juicy, it was a nice little fling. He exceeded my sexual expectations. And no, i am not sorry for 'hitting it and quitting it'. The only problem is ill be working with him over the summer, we'll see how that goes...
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